going home, going to sch.
going around.
i used to think i got over being alone already.
learning to take it in my stride.
suddenly,
it feels like the fear of being alone has come back again.
maybe its cause i am scared i will start to tink too much,
start to ponder about things i dont have the energy nor
the strength to care about.
so im starting to be scared of being on my own again.
scared of my own thoughts.
but i probably get through this in due time.
just hope the process doesnt take too loonnnnggg. T.T
at least today i feel a hint of the motivation to do work.
on my own today after jm and lalamon and shen went off for eng mod.
i actually sat down and took the time to complete my lab programming.
so rare.
i sat down for like 2 hrs consistently working.
felt so shiok after that.
today is a good mugging day.(:
didnt do much work but did enough to make me happy. :D
hope this continues on thur.(:
MUGG MUGGGGG MUGGGGGGG.(:
i decided i dont really wanna care.
no energy no time no spare strength to be affected by this.
and i suddenly realise its really not worth it.
not worth my cap from not mugging properly.
not worth my sleep.
not worth my time.
maybe i should listen to elina.
or maybe not.
